13.09.2023, 19:45. I’ve started a new blog. This is my first post…

I need to say, I just can't understand some people at all. They seem to delight in being EXTREMELY vile and EXTREMELY nasty towards kind and gentle people who would do anything for them. What is the mindset behind such disgusting behaviours? I have tried for over three years to get my head around this and I have not yet been able to comprehend it. If I (or nearly anyone I know) was to meet a kind and gentle person who loved me and gave me sanctuary when I was alone, forsaken, and persecuted, I would rather die than even hurt a single hair upon their head. I would cherish them with all my heart because for me they would be more valuable than any gold. I would never even dream of saying or doing anything to hurt their feelings, and if I accidentally did, I would stop at nothing to make up for it and would be racked with guilt for ages. Yet when some people meet a kind and gentle person who loves them and gave them sanctuary when THEY were alone, forsaken and persecuted, they seem to have an altogether different reaction. Instead of loving and cherishing the person, they are filled with a pathological hatred of epic proportions, much like the black hate of the armies of Mordor, and a desire to break, crush, torture and stamp the very light out of the person whose only crime was to be kind and gentle to them and wish them well consumes their entire being. Every word they speak to the gentle soul who opened their heart to them drips with venom and hatred of a kind not known to mortal man. How comes this to be, is what I keep asking. What makes a person so vile and so venomous, that they are eaten up by such malice, such sadistic hate towards someone who would have gladly given them the world? It is beyond my power of comprehension, I am afraid, dear reader. The only thing that keeps occurring as a possible reason is that the heart and soul of the hateful person holds such immeasurable darkness that it is so frightened and petrified of the light, and instead of being delighted and filled with warmth at the gentle embrace of the light, as a decent human being would be, it is instead taken over by terror, which presents itself as unspeakable hate. Much like Gollum felt towards the Elves, or the Witch-king towards the name of Elbereth. That is what I am settling on for the moment, unless some other idea comes to my thoughts...

13.09.2023, 22:00. I keep thinking, andruminating. What darkness must fill a creature's heart to make them indulge in such merciless pathological hate? They hurl cruel word after cruel word, like poisoned daggers, right into the heart of someone who has only ever been good to them. And when the person begs them for mercy, instead of feeling compassion, it is like a red rag to a bull, and they hurl the daggers, like a hail from hell, faster

and harder than ever, and laced with more and more deadly poison. What makes a creature so vile and venomous? How can someone who should understand what it feels like to be on the receiving end of hate do the EXACT SAME THING, if not worse, to someone who took them in, out of the goodness of their heart?

How can anyone sink so low, how can they be so cursed that they would resort to such behaviour? Such pitiless cruelty, such venomous malice? Has anyone ever hated another so much as this accursed beast of hell hates the kind, gentle, tender hearted soul whose only crime was to open their heart to them? It literally beggars belief. I can't comprehend it, dear reader. I suppose I shall return to rumination and then have another go at making sense of this absolute travesty tomorrow morning...